Daily Life of Being Turned Gay by the Male Lead After Transmigrating into an Apocalypse – CH115

Chapter 115: Thoughts

Su Mubai remembered that period with painful clarity. During his sophomore year, Su Zhiyu’s return had led to his sudden exile from the family, leaving him almost entirely cast aside and cut off from every source of financial support.

In those wretched, helpless days, Lin Xiao had been the very first person to notice that something was wrong.

Lin Xiao had never pried or asked uncomfortable questions; instead, he simply stepped in to look after him, doing so with effortless ease.

Whenever he bought food, he would “accidentally” order an extra portion of Su Mubai’s favorite dishes and push them onto him. He would drape a brand-new, thick winter coat—tags still attached—over Su Mubai’s shoulders, claiming offhandedly that he had bought the wrong size for himself. Even when Su Mubai tried to look for part-time work in secret, Lin Xiao somehow caught wind of it, dragged him straight to a café run by an older classmate that offered decent pay, and patted his own chest proudly while assuring the manager, “My brother is the most reliable guy you’ll ever meet.”

Lin Xiao did all of this so openly and naturally, taking great care to protect Su Mubai’s pride at every turn, as if it were simply what brothers did for one another.

Without realizing when it began, Su Mubai found his own feelings shifting into something far deeper.

He started paying unconscious attention to Lin Xiao’s every move. His heart would race at a single casual word of concern, and he began to secretly crave their seemingly accidental physical contact—an arm draped over his shoulder, a playful ruffle of his hair, or the shared warmth of their skin when they squeezed onto a single narrow dorm bed to play video games in the heat of summer. Like a frog slowly warming in water, those quiet moments gradually broke down the emotional walls he had thought were unbreakable.

By the time he realized the truth, he was already hopelessly trapped in Lin Xiao’s unthinking warmth.

He had fallen in love with Lin Xiao.

The realization had once thrown him into absolute panic and despair, becoming a hidden wound he could only nurse alone in the dead of night.

Yet was Lin Xiao’s extraordinary kindness really just an intense form of brotherly loyalty, or was there something more behind it?

Su Mubai never dared to be sure, nor did he ever dare to test the waters.

He terrified himself with the thought that if the truth came to light, the fragile warmth between them would shatter into pieces. He feared he would only be met with shock, disgust, or Lin Xiao avoiding him like a plague.

He preferred to keep things exactly as they were, staying by the other man’s side as a “good brother.” At least that way, he could still keep this closeness and care.

So, he had buried those forbidden, growing feelings deep within his heart, using a cool, calm exterior as armor, never daring to let a single crack show.

Yet tonight… there was that kiss.

After a long silence, Su Mubai let out a faint, barely audible sigh. Heavy with tangled emotions, the breath drifted away into the quiet room.

Standing up, he felt around in the dark until he found the flashlight, turning it on to its lowest, dimmest setting.

Under the soft glow, he walked over to the bed. He gently pulled off Lin Xiao’s shoes, socks, and soiled clothes, shifted his heavy frame into a comfortable position, and carefully pulled the thin blanket up to tuck him in.

Once finished, he clicked the flashlight off and stood quietly beside the bed.

Outside, the moonlight had grown clearer. The lively, expressive face was now completely still in sleep, thick lashes casting faint shadows under his eyes, his lips slightly parted as steady breaths escaped.

Su Mubai watched him in silence for a very long time.

Reflected in his dark eyes were internal struggle, quiet sorrow, and a fleeting tenderness that nearly spilled over. In the end, he forced all those surging emotions back down, returning to his usual calm, impenetrable composure.

Taking one last look at the sleeping man, he turned and slipped out of the room, gently pulling the door shut.

With a soft click of the latch, the room’s stillness, the heavy scent of liquor, and that disorienting kiss were locked away behind him.

The hallway returned to absolute silence.

Back in his own room, Su Mubai leaned back against the cool wall, closing his eyes to steady his racing pulse and uneven breathing.

What he didn’t realize was that the moment his door clicked shut, a pair of eyes had been watching the third-floor landing through a crack in a slightly opened doorway on the second floor.

Realizing that no more sounds were coming from upstairs, Lin Weiwei waited a moment before poking her head out. She glanced left and right, making sure the hallway was completely deserted.

She quickly smoothed down her hair, checked her clothes, and walked with light, purposeful steps toward the stairs leading up to the third floor—straight toward Lin Xiao’s room.

Just as she reached the bottom of the stairwell, however, a nearby door clicked open without a sound, and Lin Xiaoyu stepped into the hall.

The two women came face-to-face in the dim stairwell.

Lin Weiwei froze, her expression stiffening for a fraction of a second. But she recovered quickly, putting on a calm face with a well-timed look of surprise. She took the initiative to speak first: “Xiaoyu? You’re not asleep yet? I… I was having trouble sleeping because the room was so stuffy, so I came out to get some fresh air.”

Lin Xiaoyu’s sharp gaze swept over her face, instantly catching the fleeting panic in her eyes.

Her eyes then shifted toward the stairs where Lin Weiwei was heading.

A flash of understanding crossed Lin Xiaoyu’s face, followed by a faint trace of cold mockery.

Stepping closer, Lin Xiaoyu lowered her voice so that only the two of them could hear: “Weiwei, take my advice and drop those inappropriate ideas while you still can. Some branches are too high for you to climb, and some waters are far too deep for you to wade into. Staying safe and sticking with our team is the only sensible path for you right now—and the only realistic one you have. Don’t try to be clever, or you’ll only end up bringing disaster on yourself.”

Lin Weiwei felt as though she had been struck by a whip. Those blunt, harsh words pierced straight through her hidden motives, making her face turn pale and rigid.

Shame, humiliation, and the panic of being exposed flashed across her face, but they quickly hardened into stubborn resentment.

Forcing a strained smile, her voice tightened defensively. “Xiaoyu, what are you talking about? I don’t understand at all. I really just felt hot and came out for a walk. You’ve… completely misunderstood me.”

Lin Xiaoyu didn’t bother replying, nor did she look at her again. She merely cast one last, indifferent glance her way—a clear message that she had said her piece, and whether Lin Weiwei listened was entirely up to her.

She had never intended to meddle in Lin Weiwei’s manipulative climbing schemes in the first place. But in her past life, during her lowest and most desperate days, Lin Weiwei had remembered their childhood connection and tossed her some leftover bread and water, helping her survive two brutal days. It was the sole reason Lin Xiaoyu had bothered offering a warning at all.

Watching Lin Xiaoyu turn and walk back into her bedroom, Lin Weiwei felt a flare of burning anger.

She bit her lower lip hard, her chest heaving as she glared at the closed door.

Safe and steady… the sensible path? she sneered inwardly, her fingernails digging into her palms.

In an apocalypse, there was no such thing as a safe path. Opportunities had to be fought for and seized. If she could win over someone as strong as Lin Xiao, she would have a real, permanent shield for the rest of her life.

A cold resolve settled in her eyes. Shaking off the hesitation and ignoring Lin Xiaoyu’s warning, she took a deep breath, lifted her chin, and stepped determinedly up the stairs toward the third floor.

Daily Life of Being Turned Gay by the Male Lead After Transmigrating into an Apocalypse